Posted in Being Vulnerable

Dear dad

I know now the pain you grew up with was unimaginable.
Your brother’s suicides.
Your dad’s expectations around work ethic.
Having children at 21.
Living through two economic recessions.
Putting us through private school.

And the whole time not having the language to say, “I am scared of being vulnerable. I have been taught my whole life to be strong and to not show weakness. I have been bullied, mocked and betrayed. I am, therefore, not equipped to sit with your emotions. I love you, but I don’t know how to tell you so instead I worry about you all the time. I worry so much that I scare you and I am sorry for that. Your emotions matter and I wish I had the capacity to tell you that. You are worthy of love and belonging.”

-B.

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