“I let my trauma time travel.” – Jason Wilson
This episode has me feeling all the feels. Grown men, fathers, talking about their vulnerabilities always gets me teary. He told Joe, “Don’t let your trauma time travel.”
And don’t I know I do that. I not only let it time travel. I let it brood and take pieces of me. I drag it around with me like an anchor, yet never let it down when I get to shore. There is no shore. I just sail in circles brooding and shaking with anger.
But here is this grown man who has experienced a thousand more times the trauma than I have telling Joe to let it go.
It doesn’t serve you.
Stop bleeding and go get healed.
Life is more than just our pain.
At a job longer than two years.
I’ve never done it.
I keep chasing greener grass.
I get bored or the team changes or the culture disintegrates or I believe they’re holding me back
I always find a reason.
I give it my all the first six months truly
And then something happens.
Either it’s the team, the company or me
And then I bounce
I get antsy man.
And I try to understand people who stay.
People who have created a family there but I can’t seem to wrap my mind around it.
I love the idea of family at work
But I also love the idea of career progression and being well paid.
And being challenged.
Maybe it’s my father in me.
He always did bounce around jobs in his twenties.
Chasing that dollar.
And there’s nothing wrong with that.
I have goals man.
I want a house.
I want tattoos.
I want to travel.
So I keep swiping and scrolling for that next job.
That next high.
Because I ain’t comfortable yet.