So I majored in Finance, right?
But did I know what I wanted to do with that?
I just chose Finance as a fuck you to my dad because he wanted me to do Accounting.
And I hated my Accounting classes.
Let’s be honest, no one likes accounting classes.
They’re full of dry words and jokes about balance.
So I chose Finance.
It wasn’t easy, but it wasn’t miserable either.
And while I was studying I was also working on a hedge fund team for a major bank, so I thought this ain’t too bad right?
Until I realised after two years I was stressed, depressed and full of rage because my job was killing me from the inside.
But that’s the industry, right?
So suck it up, buttercup.
So I moved across the country to another hedge fund team.
Now, that team I truly loved.
That team taught me everything and were also the first people who truly believed in me.
But then the company offshored my job two years later and again I was depressed and full of panic attacks.
So I jumped to another bank.
But this time not on a hedge fund team, but a treasury team.
This role was odd to say the least.
They hired me with no direction and left me to my own devices.
So what did I do?
I wrote letters to my pen pal.
For a year I got overpaid to do nothing.
But for the first time I wasn’t stressed or depressed, instead I was bored.
Next, I made a big leap and moved across the world to be with my pen pal.
I didn’t know where I would work or what I would do. I just knew what I didn’t want to do.
Now, three years later I have an inkling of what I may want to do only through multiple trials and errors.
And I’m realising this shit is hard.
This whole career thing.
I’m constantly curious and anxious about everything.
I want to know how everything works, but then I get too overwhelmed to start.
And unfortunately, this world doesn’t give you too many do overs.
At some point, I need to choose.
But at the same time I regret nothing.
My journey has been interesting and full of beautiful people who have changed my life so I thank the universe for all of it.
Even if it hasn’t been niche.