I refuse to feel shame around bowel movements.
Around not wearing makeup
Around looking tired
Around asking for help
Around diet choices
Around sexual activity
Around past failures
Through noom, I’m now at 71kg.
Discipline for the win
And a Fuck ton of mistakes along the way.
Running during lock down has been my saving grace.
1. I am now able to eat dark chocolate every day and not over eat.
2. I am now able to run a half marathon.
3. I am getting comfortable crying. I have cried almost every day the past two weeks and I see this as an accomplishment of facing my emotions in a healthy way.
4. I am letting go of my insecurity about my butt.
5. I am opening up to my partner more and checking my ego when it gets triggered.
6. I have meditated for 18 days straight.
If you know where I got my title, tell me. I’d like to unite with some old school Disney kids.
So I fell today.
Just a little curb trip during my run. Nothing crazy. I did sit there for a bit on the pavement chuckling to myself. I do that when I’m in pain. I googled it, laughing is some kind of defense mechanism I guess. It works for me.
Anyways, I was really grateful though that when I tripped a cyclist saw me and stopped to check on me. He was a typical Aussie grandpa. Very sweet, very calm and just asking me questions. “Did you break anything? Just breathe. Don’t move right away. Is your elbow okay?”
And the whole time I was just laughing with embarrassment and thinking, “what a kind soul.”
After a couple minutes I was fine though and I told him, “Thank you for stopping. I gotta keep running now. ” and so he left and I continued on my way, but in all honesty, he made my day.
So the shopping is still going on.
I bought new running sunnies.
Don’t worry! Leggings are still an obsession.
But these new sun glasses were the next needed buy.
Goodr is seen on alot of ultra runners, including Courtney Dauwalter, who is kind of my hero. And obviously if she’s wearing them, I need them too. Yes, I am that easily influenced. But honestly, they’re worth it. The colors are bright and fun and make running even more enjoyable. I know caring about fashion while running sounds stupid, but it actually does bring more joy to my life when I wear a cute outfit while exercising. Also, being comfortable while uncomfortable is really important. Running long distances isn’t easy so why make it harder by wearing shitty sunglasses that slip all the time?
Might as well do the research, see what the professionals are wearing and see if those brands are worth investing in.
So I did.
And I love them!
I want fun clothes
I want color
I want glitter
I want joy
I see her running
In her rainbows
And I think,
“She is stunning!
This is me
This is free!”
And I reach for her
Because I too
Want to be