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Preventing burn out

I’m not insane

I know what burn out looks like

Feels like

Tastes like.

It is stress on steroids.

Hence the addiction.

But I don’t use the needle anymore.

I’m lucky.

I’ve learned.

Through pain of course.

But eventually, I learned

That my worth is not wrapped up

In my productivity.

Because it is already innately wrapped up in me.

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She admonished me

On Tuesday.

Was it reasonable?

In her mind, yes.

In mine, no.

But do I see the benefits of it?


Her high expectations trigger me

But they also make me sharper.

She pushes me

Like my dad use to.

And god do i want her approval.

And her mind.

Maybe one day

I’ll be as smart and experienced as her.




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Going to Brisbane

As my last trip got cancelled, I’m excited to say I’m finally going to Brisbane for work.

Though as luck would have it, I have the sniffles and I don’t feel 100%.

But I tested multiple times and it’s not the C word so that’s good.

Regardless, I’ve thrown the kitchen sink at it. As rogan would say.

I have taken vitamin c packets, olive leaf, sudafed, ibuprofen and plenty of water.

I’m determined for it to not progress because currently it’s at a manageable level.

And who knows? It could be allergies with all this change in weather in Sydney.

All I know is I can’t cancel my trip again.

It’s too important.

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This week is very exciting for me.

I’m officially going on my first work trip!

Three days in Brisbane to meet the head office and people I work with every day.

Honestly, it’s a dream come true for me to be at a company that sees my potential, invests in my education, and who values my input.

I’ve never worked for people who constantly check in with me like my managers do.

I’m use to the sink or swim mentality to be honest.

I’m use to the, just get it done.

The, oh it’s mid year so I guess it’s time to talk about your performance, kind of people.

When in reality, your leaders should be checking in with you regularly and listening to your problems and making sure they’re addressed. Your problems may not be solved, but if they at least try to solve them then that’s a big step in the right direction.

And these managers do that.

It’s crazy!

So I’m just here floating in gratitude right now because I can’t believe I finally found what I want.

I want this culture.

These people.

This work.

It feels right.

And I just couldn’t be more happy.